I did it my way....

I'm sure you have heard the song "I did it my way" by Frank Sinatra.

Yes there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I chewed it up and spit it out,
I faced it all and I stood tall,
and did it my way.

Man, growing up that could have been my theme song! I did things the way I wanted, when I wanted and no one could tell me it wasn't right. After all I knew everything! :)

After many wrong turns and learning multiple things the hard way I learned a valuable lesson....its not about doing it my way at all.

"Abba, Father, He cried out, everything is possible for You. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine." Mark 14:36

Jesus prays this prayer to His Father right before He is arrested and put on the cross to die for us. Obviously He is struggling but, what I LOVE is His heart to do the will of His Father. He realizes it's not about Him at all, but about what His Father has asked of Him knowing there is a greater good. Knowing there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel....knowing if His Father is asking Him to do it, everything He goes through in the process will be worth it.

This verse has changed me to my core...changed everything about how I think through things and live my life every day.

When we live with the mind set that its not about us, it makes doing His will a whole lot easier.

Of course there have been times in my life where I have struggled with this and wrestled with fear and anxiety over what I wanted to do up against what God was asking me to do. I've struggled with what people think or say up against what God has asked me to do. But the thing I have come back to every single time is Gods way is better. I've settled it in my heart, His way is ALWAYS better. We may not understand why He does what He does or how He does it, but the thing we can trust is its for GOOD.

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